I recently finished reading having a Mary Heart in a Martha World – Finding Intimacy with God in the Busyness of Life by Joanna Weaver. A book I now highly recommend for all women, young and old to read. For the next 12 weeks, I plan to share my findings as I journey through the accompanying Bible Study Mrs. Weaver placed at the end of the book.
Going Deeper – Day Seven
8 ) What spoke most to you in this, chapter.
The morning my mother the beloved Thelma B. Jefferson went home to be with the Lord in the spring of 2006; I was very audibly awakened by the Holy Spirit. It was the first time I had ever been awakened in such a way and at the time in the morning. It was just before 4:00 AM. Being obedient I got up and began to pray in my heavenly language / tongues. The night before I had been told I was being recommended for a position to work full-time in ministry and was not completely sure about taking up the offer because it was not in one my strengths area. I knew it was my destiny to work in ministry, however I was not sure if it was the right season or timing for it.
So, as I began to pray my heart at first was heavy. As I was led deeper into the spirit and began praising God I felt a peace. At the end of the hour or so, I lifted my hands up and said ‘Lord, whatever people places or things you must remove out of my life in order for me to walk in your perfect will. I promise I will not become angry with you.’ As I stated above that was the morning my mother went home to be with the Lord…
Additional life changing events began to unfold shortly thereafter…relationship testing. I accepted the position and was released and brought back. Learned my boyfriend/fiancé of 6 years was cheating on me. My finances were hit, the list goes on. However through it all I kept my promise of not getting angry with God.
Yet, our relationship became one of duty bound because I was trying to shield myself from being hurt again, versus one of release and restoration. Reading this chapter and doing the Bible Study showed me that. Real power comes from learning how to release your cares wants and desires back to God. He has a specific purpose for each of us and if we are bogged down, with burdens he did not want us to carry, we can miss the mark. Then what most of us do is look towards God and asking him why? When, we were the cause of it all; for we had stepped out of the protection that is found in being intimate with him.
To be continued…
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