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It’s Me Oh Lord, Standing in Need of Prayer

Posted on November 1, 2013 by Lela Jefferson Fagan

“Don’t focus on your weaknesses; focus on your God.” – Pastor Joel Osteen

Yesterday, I received a report about my health that essentially shook my world.  The news even came with pictures!  I am still trying to wrap my head around it. In a sense, I honestly can’t because if I do I will open a door for fear to enter in rather than let my faith to grow from within.

I think I can actually list what I am experiencing in the natural as the physical manifestation of things I know that have been going on in the spirit.  There are dreams and things that I was supposed to start years ago that have been blocked by my fears.  My dreams have been lying dormant for way too long.  If I do not do what is necessary to remove the blockage; they will never be able to get to develop properly and be birthed.  I have allowed some of my fears to calcify.  My fears at this point, I can’t even play with them.  They have to be eradicated, removed entirely in order for me to walk fully in the call of God for my life.   I have received warning signs in the past, but ignored them.  I used different diversions and “pain” killers rather than facing them head on and now I have no other choice, but to deal with the results of my neglect.  I take ownership of my truth; I am seeking God’s knowledge and trusting that in the end, he will be glorified.

There was something powerful that my husband said in the midst of all this.  He said that I had taken it for granted; what I hoped to happen. In essence, I had not prepared properly and yet still expected stellar results.  He is right.

There are many areas of my life I have done just that; taken for granted what I expected to occur.   I am not beating myself up about it, but I do know that junk stops now; here and now.  The picture has been planted in my spirit of what I want to be birthed, and I have to do my part to help it manifest.

My Prayer Today:

Thank you, Holy Spirit for giving me wisdom and guiding me along the process as we sojourn on this experience together.  Lord Jesus, I thank you for your grace, your patience and faith in me and most importantly for your cleansing and restoring blood! In you, I am perfect and complete without spot or blemish!

© 2013, Lela Jefferson Fagan. All rights reserved.

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