I think one of the most powerful things that have had to happen due to my relocation, is the need for me to start over in a number of areas of my life. I actually have no other choice but to if I am to succeed moving forward in any assignment God places in my responsibility to steward. The Lord has given me fresh eyes, and revelation. I am being stretched and have moved away from my comfort zone, New York, home. During this season, God has humbled me on so many levels, and I am still being humbled and pruned. I love this season I am in. Though there have been moments I have cried, secretly and publicly, he continues to lead and guide me. He is showing me that all of the effort and sacrifice is ultimately preparing me to experience his best.
Self assessment is no joke. Nor are Holy Spirit grace usage and abuses checks of the heart and motives. I have had to assess how I do many of the things I had thought were common practice. For example, am I doing a job to the best of my abilities and engaging God so the standard can be raised? Was a job done in excellence and in love or out of fear and self imposing obligation? These are just a handful of questions I now ask myself on a regular basis. No longer will I let myself to be bullied by my inner me aka fear. Instead, I will genuinely begin to rely on, be led by and trust in the God who is living in me totally. I now realize the symptoms when I am not.
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