Digital Diary Entry
Date: 7 Years Ago – but forever etched in my heart.
God was leading me down paths that required radical faith. Looking back now, I realize I wasn’t just walking into motherhood—I was walking into my calling.
“For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.” — 2 Timothy 1:7 (NLT)
I may not have carried a child in my womb[yet], but I’ve carried this calling in my spirit. And now, here we are—certified foster-to-adopt parents, waiting in faith and love for the child or children God has already prepared for us. Our hearts, our home, and our hands are open. The journey hasn’t been easy, but it’s been sacred. And I now know, without a doubt, that…
I AM the Mama.
“God places the lonely in families…” — Psalm 68:6 (NLT)
📖 NLT Scripture Takeaways
Jeremiah 29:11 (NLT)
“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”
As I shared in the first part of my 3-part blog series, “Who am I? She asked. I answered my name was Hannah,” our decision to become foster-to-adoptive parents was not one we took lightly. It demanded physical endurance and emotional surrender. But we moved forward, trusting that God’s plan was better than our own—and that He was preparing a future far more beautiful than anything we could imagine.
Isaiah 66:9 (NLT)
“Would I ever bring this nation to the point of birth and then not deliver it?” asks the Lord. “No! I would never keep this nation from being born,” says your God.
God—our Deliverer and the author and finisher of our faith—wrote my motherhood story in His own divine way. No, I didn’t give birth in the traditional sense, but He birthed something just as sacred through my obedience, surrender, and trust.
Psalm 127:3 (NLT)
“Children are a gift from the Lord; they are a reward from him.”
Today, I am the mother of three beautiful children—each one uniquely knit into the fabric of our family. They were conceived by faith, two adopted by love, and the third… the answer to her mother’s and grandmothers’ fervent prayers. God didn’t just fulfill a promise—He multiplied it.
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